This weekend I began a few more small oil studies for the My Buddy and Me Series that I started this year. This captures a little boy in his cowboy boots feeding a baby pig with a bottle.
This reminds me of feeling of childhood. When you are a child you have such basic needs. As an infant you are held, fed, changed, talked to, played with and rocked. You know not the full implications of what lies ahead in life and if you did, you would have voted to stay in the warm womb floating around. Growing up is filled with responsibilities, disappointments, joys, self destruction, (Like others don't do it to us enough, we have to do it to ourselves.) relationships, and life in general both good and bad. (again according to your perception.)
Sometimes I just get weary. Weary of taking care of so much in my life that I brought into it. I can only blame myself and no one else, but I am weary. Four times since four thirty this morning I have given it back to God and dad gum, it keeps crawling back into the tired spaces of my mind. These are times that requires pure faith and then attached wisdom to make changes not wanting to be dealt with. All those creepy "What ifs" come sliding in from hidden corners.
I look at the little pig in the painting and know the little boy will take care of him. I know looking at myself in the mirror, God will take care of me, even despite myself. I know he leads me, but I have to take the first steps. He promises his strength and it is time to step out of my comfort zone.
Are you coming along?
Grace,
Laurie
"Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
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